She is not “my girl.”
She belongs to herself. And I am blessed, for with all her freedom, she still comes back to me, moment-to-moment, day-by-day, and night-by-night.
How much more blessed can I be?
People who say sadness doesn’t hurt physically apparently never experienced feeling so sad. I’ve felt it in my legs, my jaw, my head, my quivering lips, aching eyes, and my aching chest. It hurts my chest the most because it literally feels like your heart is in pain.
to everyone with finals and exams and big projects due very very soon and haven’t started anything yet
Wow what a journey… I finished out all my miles and experienced my last day of fasting yesterday.
But hey… LAST DAY OF NO MIRRORS WOOP.
I actually don’t know how I feel about this. I think the hardest part of finishing out these forty days of mirrorlessness will be reminding myself that you don’t need your image to feel beautiful. You can wear confidence instead of make-up and a smile instead of a pretty dress. Those alone can make you shine.
Mirrors are an excess, but even eliminating them completely doesn’t solve every problem. Comparing yourself to others still makes things awful. It’s a real struggle sometimes to feel confident with your own body and many times we like to pretend that we are someone else and that we can look just like they do if we change our wardrobe, work out more often, take on a new diet, apply new make-up.
But that’s crazy. No amount of exterior altering will ever truly change who you are. You’re unique. You are the only you EVER. Embrace that. You will accomplish things in your lifetime that someone else may never be able to. You are special.
Tomorrow is Easter. To some of you, that piece of information may mean nothing, but hear me out a minute. Easter is a significant holiday. Of course, at it’s core, it’s a miracle and proof of how much we are loved and that death is not the end. But Easter also acknowledges a new beginning. A rebirth. A second chance.
I encourage all of you, religious or not, to take that second chance. Every day is a new opportunity to change your life. Take it, if you wish. It could be in a small tweak of habit, or even a monumental shift in daily life, but you decide the extent and what it will mean in your life.
This has been such an enlightening time. Tomorrow, when I look at myself for the first time in 40(+) days, I hope that I see a reflection filled with confidence and grace. I hope that there’s a hopeful gleam in my eyes because now I realize that I can be proud of who I am regardless of the state of my face, outfits, or body shape. There’s so much more to life anyways.
Thank you for taking this journey with me. You guys are the best.
Happy Easter. Here’s to a new life.
Go on ANON and tell me what you think of me. I do not want to know who it is, at all. Don’t tell me who it is, don’t give me hints, don’t say your screen name. Tell me exactly what you think of me. Don’t sugarcoat things. Don’t lie. If you hate me, tell me why. Tell me what I’m doing wrong. If you like me, tell me why. Tell me exactly what you think of me.